[by nutmeg]

trudy, i never asked younot to callk me? what did i say that gave you that impression? i am so sorry if i did and that is why all this happened. i said that it would be useless to call me until morning (remember it was the middle of the night here then) because we couldn't get minutes on our phone.

trudy canyou just call me now? i dont know if you will but please i feel it wouild be easier than this back and forth.

also - whati asked exactly was that you ask them not to come and take Adia away yesterday. i couldnt handle that if i never got to see her again! my husband was with me all day, he understands thick indian accents more than i do so he had to keep talking to everyone at Lotus for me.

this time at Lotus they just admitted her under 'jyothi'. honestly i dont know if she HAS a real last name! i found out her mother and father's first names and that's all.

trudy i tried to find these people at Niloufer! for more than an hour and then i had to leave because the grandmother weas getting impatient!

and yes, i still say and i stand by it that i dont want them to get in trouble becaus ei said something that was a rumour, if the rumour was not true. let them get in trouble because of what they HAVE done. otheriwise, its not justice. i am a student of hindu and buddhist philosophy and i have used everything in my soul to try not to hav anger against Adia's family. sometimes i fail, but.....please, undersdtand it the way i see it, these people had horrible lives troo. they were raised in fitlth, poverty, lies, and dishonesty, and are products of that. i hate what MADE them this way, not them. even though yes sometimes i do feel anger toward them too.

listen theres really abd communication here and i know i am scattered but that doesnt make me a faraud! if ytou only could know and understand what i am going threough here and how much i love adia. i broke down crying from joy last night when i was able to pay the bill, i was terrified that we would nto have enough in our savings box - and then the gransdmother didnt want to stay there with adia (an adult has to stay) and finally it all worked - i cannto say how happy i was. it was finally looking good, and now THIS! please trudy. dont do this without having actual reasons! to trell em id dint 'utilize my opportunity' to meet with someone is just cruel! i ewent to niloufer yeasterday even with migivings because i thought it might give me a chance to talk to someone who knew what was going on!

was that actually my only chance? cant you jsut TELL me who these peopel are and give me a contact numeber or something for an appointment? i WANT to talk to somemone who can helkp me help, dont you see that?

[further typo apologies!]